secrets.

it's not hard. or addictive. or inescapeable.
its not want. or desire. or need.
really, everything we do, is because were on a path of self destruction that we don't even realise.
we blame everyone else for fucking us up. Our parents. Our love. Our mistakes. look at the first word. it's not them. it's because they're linked with us. Regrets are just a way of wishing things were different. that you didnt fuck up, because you don't have anyone else to blame it on. regrets are the truth.
our feelings. emotions. lies. the things we do to cover our tracks or keep the person we want most, and we know its wrong. its one more thing, because that person, or the thing were covering, could very well be the destruction of us anyway.
we walk right into the traps of our lives.
and we struggle, and call for help and try to get out.
but we'll walk straight into another trap.
we are, the definition of self destruction.
all it takes is ourselves.